The beginning of my reading and writing journey…I know this will sound weird, but growing up, I was never into reading or writing. In high school, I read books by V.C. Andrews simply because I was on restriction and wasn’t allowed to do anything else. I dropped out of high school, was too busy partying, drinking, and doing drugs. I was eager to “grow up” and lived on my own at the young age of 16. Reading and writing were by far the least of my thoughts or concerns. When senior year came around, I was aware of being several credits behind and acknowledged it was time for me to focus on my education. Luckily, I managed to graduate high school on time from a continuation school. Seven months later, I became pregnant and everything changed.
I literally grew up overnight. I enrolled in college, moved back home with my tail between my legs, and did everything in my power to be a worthy mother. When my daughter was born, I worked and attended school full-time. Most of my income went to daycare and rent, but I didn’t care, that was a sacrifice I was willing to make. I was determined to fulfill the educational goals I had set for myself and eventually, earned a Master’s of Business Administration degree. I yearned to be a positive role model for my daughter and not be a negative statistic.
Reading and writing were seen as tedious tasks that consisted of research and facts on matters I lacked interest in. Every week, I wrote regarding boring business topics or reports for work purposes. I never did either out of pure enjoyment…that is until Twilight entered my life.
My daughter made us have a movie night and was beyond excited that Twilight had just came out on DVD. Throughout the movie, we joked telling one another we were each other’s crack cocaine when Edward stated, “you’re like a drug to me.” My daughter didn’t allow us to continue speaking and demanded silence. I enjoyed the movie and promised her I would read the book soon. The night of the MTV Movie Awards, everything changed for me…I saw the world premiere trailer of the movie, New Moon. It blew me away (to say the least). The next day, I purchased the book set of the Twilight Saga and finished the series in eight days (including Midnight Sun). Reading was no longer perceived as a boring duty. I read the series three times back to back. I couldn’t get enough and was completely enamored with Edward Cullen. I continued reading YA paranormal books and novels by Nicholas Sparks. I was very content with my reading material until I was introduced to Mr. Fifty Shades of Fucked Up.
Sweet. Baby. Jesus! This man turned my life upside down and ignited a passion for reading that I wasn’t aware existed. Immediately, I became obsessed. Soon, I found wonderful ladies on Instagram who shared the same lust for this amazing, yet twisted man. The group became an organized book club due to the leadership and determination of Juliet Fowler.
During the book discussions and my lengthy comments, Juliet would advise me to write a book. During this time, my husband made the same suggestions. Eventually, I seriously considered it and a story along with characters rapidly formed. The plot and personalities took a life of their own. During many nights of writing, I simply did my best to catch up and allow the story to unfold.
Next month, through the grace of God, my goal of writing a book and having it published will become a reality. I can’t begin to describe the sense of accomplishment I feel. I never believed myself capable of achieving such an endeavor, yet I did despite my lack of experience with creative writing.
The purpose of exposing my past mistakes and the journey with my reading and writing is in hopes that someone can obtain insight from my experience. I’ve always been my worst critic and carrying the guilt I have for being such a screw up in my younger years still sits heavy on my shoulders, although I’ll have to admit the weight has decreased as the years have progressed. Now, my goal is to remain positive and continue with this new writing venture that has become an absolute pleasure. Yes, my past is full of mistakes, but learning from them has made me a better person who appreciates all of life’s lessons. I can’t allow my past to dictate my future.
I hope everyone reads and likes my book, Pinned Up as much as I enjoyed writing it. The book consists of romance, friendship, loyalty, betrayal, crude humor, sensuality, and discoveries. This book isn’t just for women, men will find it amusing as well =)
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